Taking a thinking break

My many devoted fans (or at least a few of my immediate family members) are asking me to please publish another post already! I was posting almost daily for awhile there. But then I just stopped. Everything is fine, don’t worry! I just got a little bored with my posts and I figured if I’m bored, then imagine how bored my readers must be.

I’ve been posting vacation photos – some of which have been amazing. But I haven’t been saying much. Maybe it’s time I say a little more. But about what? What’s been on my mind lately?

Well – we had a good trip to Utah earlier this summer, and then we came back and focused on the remodel in Tucson. We got packed up and took a bunch of stuff to Albuquerque, and then we went back to Tucson and finished packing up the house, and then we drove to Boise, and now we’re in Seattle for all of August.

I’m not sure where I’m going to be the first half of September, but John needs to be in Albuquerque right after Labor Day. Then I’m getting a cancer scan done in the middle of September in Tucson. Then I believe we’re going back to Albuquerque until our house in Tucson is once again habitable. (Our contractor says our new cabinets were delivered this morning, yay!)

So…forgive me if I’m feeling a little scattered. I’ve also got a million other little things I’ve been dabbling in; projects and volunteer activities of various sorts. A lot of them are great endeavors, but the sum of it all doesn’t feel very coherent. Part of me thinks I should just settle down and get serious about my career again. But which career?

Should I look for another environmental science job, or start working on advertising my coaching business? I am still coaching – I’m always coaching. I’ve been coaching continuously for over twenty years. But I have only a few clients. I think I would feel more useful (and I would make more money) if I took on more clients, but I find that their lives impact my mental state.

Imagine if a number of your friends and family members were all struggling at once – you can only deal with so many struggling people at one time, right? My clients’ struggles affect me emotionally, even though I am not in charge of fixing their lives. That’s their responsibility. But still, I care. And that caring affects me. My life starts feeling hard if I have a lot of clients – because their lives feel to me like part of my life; their difficulties feel like my difficulties.

I think my ideal situation would be my usual few clients plus something new. But I don’t have a clear idea of what that new thing might be.

And now back to your regularly scheduled programming. (More vacation photos coming soon.)

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