Kristina has a chronic illness

  

I don’t mean to scare you, but that’s what migraines are – when they’re bad and when they’re frequent. A chronic illness. It’s important that I remember that, because otherwise I’ll try to hard to cure what isn’t curable, dooming myself to guilt and failure. And I’ll try to hard to do what others can do, without even thinking about it. Also resulting in guilt and failure.

  

 

Today my daughter sent me this supportive quote from http://thebloggess.com/2017/04/18/sometimes-you-can-go-home-again/

“My family knows that my mental and physical issues cause chronic exhaustion so often I’d have to go to bed just when the night got exciting, but that’s just a part of being me and I’ve come to accept that if I push myself too hard I might end up in a pit too deep to come out of.  And it was fine.  Disappointing, of course, but fine.  Until Easter Sunday when I woke up and realized that I had no spoons left.  Hailey and I got dressed in our new Easter dresses and I helped my nieces get ready but already I could tell that I could either go to my uncle’s for Easter and visit with a giant house full of dozens of people I love, or I could safely stay awake for the hours I would be driving back home that day.  But not both.  So as I helped my family load up into their cars I told them I had to leave.  And they understood instantly and supported my decision as only people who truly love you can do.  And I felt so lucky.  And so unlucky.  And sad for Hailey whose Easter dress would go to waste and who was so sad but so instantly understanding when I explained that I just didn’t have it in me to do something that normal people could do without thinking.” –by thebloggess.com

Thank you Laura, and thank you, Bloggess.